The Haul of Shame

That went well. I have no excuse. And I feel bad but also happy at the same time.

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So, Rossmann had 30% off of lipsticks/glosses and nailpolishes, I had a shit week and this is where the tragedy begins. My first slip up was a polish (Catrice Purple Reign) and the incredible Catrice Ultimate Shine Gel Color in License to Pink. It is the deep pink in the picture (I seem to have a bit of a pink moment right now, no clue where that comes from).

I have fallen head over heels for License to Pink. The formula is amazing. It reminds me a bit of my beloved Astor Lipbutters but with a little less slip. The lipstick is super pigmented, moisturizing  and leaves a slight stain aka. it wears off incredibly even and nice. This stuff has a way of making my lips look super plush and smooth. It makes the lips shine but it is more of a creamy shine than a glossy shine, just the way I like it.

The rest of what you can see in the picture above is the damage I did today. (Epicfail -.-).

The other lipstick is Catrice Ultimate Shine in Yes, We Can-dy. It is a warm pink with golden shimmer in it. I am currently gravitating away from beige ‘concealer’ nudes to soft pinks and I already had a look at it during my first haul but left it behind, only to obsess over it for the rest of the week. Now it came home with me and I keep on staring at it . Lovely, I tell you!

The next lip product is the Catrice Beautifying Lip Smoother in 030 Cake Pop. This is very obviously supposed to be a dupe for the Clarins Instant Smooth Lip Perfector (which is still on my wishlist, I can’t help myself). I picked up the Lip Smoother with the ambition to actually use this up and make an effort of having SOMETHING on my lips. As much as I love my lip products (lip product addict tag?) I tend to rush out of the door with eyes and cheeks done but no lip stuff. I’ve been wearing the lip smoother for the past couple of hours and it tastes sweet and leaves my lips super soft. I don’t really have issues with chapped lips anymore since I started to drink enough throughout the day, but it is still nice to have something conditioning on I find.

The nailpolish is a neon pink by Astor Fashion Studio and the new Neo Tribal collection. I really like the Astor polishes but they tend to be a little overlooked, even though the provide great quality for a very reasonable price.

And last but not least Catrice Velvet Matt eyeshadow in Al Burgundy. I covetted this color ever since I saw it in the press release and heard the rave reviews from the Catrice event. The color is a dark plummy burgundy color (it reminds me a bit of Sketch by MAC [which is also on my wishlist -.-]) and the texture is buttery soft. However, I heard from a lot of people that their Al Burgundy shattered easily and I heaved a sigh of relieve when I got mine home in one piece. Not one for travelling I’d say.

 

What to take away from this other than a couple of pretty beauty products? That I use a crappy week as an excuse to buy stuff. This has to stop. I have to find other ways to make myself feel better. What do you do to make yourselves feel better that has nothing to do with buying stuff? I’d love to hear about your habits!

[Up Close and Personal/ Organizing my Life] KAUFSTOP! Liberation from Consumerism

As I am waiting for the construction workers to get ready in the bathroom so I can actually leave the house and get on with my life, let’s address a question that is going around with me for a while: I HAVE TO STOP BUYING STUFF!

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Recently I realized that I spend too much money on things I don’t really need. Like, who needs 6 foundations? I have just the one face and it is not like they are all doing different things. And let’s face it (no pun intended) I keep on coming back to the same ones, while letting the others collect dust and you know what the worst part is? Catrice is coming out with two more foundations that I really want to try. Why on earth would I want that? I have three foundations that I really love, two of them I will repurchase once I run out. I still really like the other ones, so I will use those up and let it be.

Here is my contract with you guys: I promise to use up all of my extra foundations, those that didn’t make the cut and not to buy any new ones. Absolute Kaufstop! (I love my language sometimes, basically translated directly it would be purchase stop).

The two foundations I will repurchase are MAC Face and Body which has a sheer glowy finish for summer and good skin days and Max Factor Facefinity 3 in 1 which does everything my beloved MAC Studio Fix Fluid does with a slightly higher spf (20 vs 15) and it comes in at less then half the price. 

Next stop: Blushes, Bronzers
I have 4 bronzers and more blushes then I care to admit and the worst part, they are all similar shades -.- Absolute Kaufstop here, too (even though not going for the MAC and Marge Simpson blush really hurts) I have more blushes than I can use up in a life time, I haven’t hit pan on any of them. What rationally would be the best here is to weed out blushes that don’t perform as well, and the nth dupe of the soft coral blush in my collection. It hurts. But it is necessary. I don’t need all this, I can’t use up all this. Maybe I’ll let my friends go through the blushes maybe they want to pick one for themselves and the rest will have to go. And this time I will have to take my MAC collection into account as well. Any drugstore blush that is a dupe for a MAC blush will have to go.

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Lipsticks/glosses:
Same thing. Dupes need to go, and I can’t buy any new ones. Colors that look funny on me need to go. I need to break it down to one lipstick for any shade. I will let myself keep different finishes of the same color though,

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We can go on like this for everything; Mascara, eyeliners, eyeshadows, etc. Fact is I have to stop. No matter how much I crave something. It doesn’t make me happy longterm. It is like an addiction. When I buy something new, especially color cosmetics I am happy for about 5 minutes and then I have to feed the beast again. This cannot be healthy. It is unnecessary luxury that I should spend on keeping my body healthy because if I have learned anything, it is that good food and excercise is keeping me happy and sane, not buying more eyeshadows that I don’t wear.

Please by all means, don’t take this as me telling YOU what to do, this is me telling ME what to do! Do whatever makes you happy and if that is going shopping go for it, hell, it makes me happy. But not happy enough. I can only be truly happy when I am on top of my financial situation and right now I don’t feel balanced. This has to stop. 

And yes, this has to extend to nailpolishes, too. I made my last purchase yesterday and that has to be it. Nailpolish is my ultimate craze, but I realized that there is barely a polish that I ever wear more than once. I would love the satisfaction of using up a polish and I don’t mean top or basecoat here, those are necesseties like skincare, which are obviously excluded from the buying ban. With this I cannot promise that I will STOP completely but I will definitely buy very selectively from now on. I may go into detail on the sisterhood blog.

Also no new books except for the ones that I have on my list which are Deborah Harkness The Book of Life, Rob Thomas Veronica Mars- Mr. Kiss and Tell and Ken Follett Edge of Eternity. No new music and dvds either, I have Amazon Instant which should keep me happy and there is no new music coming out from my favorite bands.

The challenge is on as of now and indefinitely. I scheduled the first update for a month from now. The hardest part will be to stay honest with myself. I will make a list of all unnecessary purchases aka The List of Shame and we will go through it in a month. Bear with me if you like. Again I don’t mean to go judgemental or preachy on you all, this is my journey but sharing with you helps me to stick with it.

There may be more ‘organizing my life’ posts going up soon. I am going deep into my thesis now and I need to stay organized and focused, planning like this helps me a lot.

Sunday Round Up #29 With A Side of Up Close and Personal

This was about the hardest week I had to endure in a long time.
I hate it when things are out of my control and I have to have faith in other people. This week I had to trust people to get the documents for my Master application ready and of course there was a shitload of drama involved. I’m not going to go into detail because it’s pretty pointless, suffice it to say that I got everything I needed but I had to put up big fight. If someone tries to tell you Germany is organized and punctual and shit; No we are not, especially not the authorities. Absolute disgrace for a reasonably developed country, just saying.

Either way I survived. And a lot better than I thought I would. I managed to stay positive throughout the whole week. I did have a panic moment on thursday (because of course everything accumulated on friday), but I did something about it by writing an e-mail and making a plan how I would tackle friday. Staying organized always helps me. It was a brief moment and didn’t  paralyze me for long like it used to. I managed to find ways to treat myself right and take the edge off the pressure. Working out helped but I have to say when the stress hit me hardest I skipped two days because I just didn’t have the time or the energy to do it. I allowed myself yolo food, stressfree reading, a wee bit of shopping and some light weight tv-watching (more on that further down). The insomnia didn’t hit me all that hard. I fell asleep relatively easily throughout the week. It may have helped that I worked 4 out of five days. Long story short, I found a way to treat myself right without completely falling apart and over-compensating. I drew a lot of strength from little happy things like my colleague saving me a chips container to put away so I had something ‘easy’ to do after the mildly annoying drugstore container I had to put away, my boss complaining about the drugstore aisle but being stopped short when my other boss told him it couldn’t have been a recent mess up because little old me worked the drugstore aisle this week. You know, the little stuff. And looking forward to hanging out with my bestie on saturday really helped.

So here’s to a mini Sunday Round Up:

Make up-wise my skin was finally healthy enough again for me to go back to MAC Face&Body. I had major hormonal break outs and cystic acne induced by the Nivea Protect and Bronze face cream that I talked about earlier, not gonna wear that again then. Instead I went back to my trusted Diadermine Lift+SPF cream, in fact I had to buy a new pot this week. I just love that stuff. BTW my face still tans despite the SPF 30 but it doesn’t burn.
I also got my first Real Techniques brushes, as they were sold at my local TK Maxx. I got the travel essentials set with the essential foundation, domed shadow and multitask brush. I have used them all already and they are SO good. Even the essential foundation even though I am usually not a fan of flat foundation brushes. I think I won’t use it for foundation but for concealer and eye primer. The domed shadow brush is denser than any brush I own and I am still playing with it, but I really like it so far.

Media-wise I finished City of Lost Souls yesterday and yep, I still like it. The book got me safely through the week. It is not particularly deep or demanding and therefore a really nice companion for a stressed mind like mine. I am currently reading J.R.Ward’s Lover Mine part one (book 8 in the series). I accidentally started to read that before reading book 7 and I didn’t even notice. So much for the quality of that series. It is rather entertaining though and I’ve gotten that far so I might just continue reading.
I marathoned Mistresses and really liked it. It is a show with Alyssa Milano whom I really like, lovely Lost lady Yunjin Kim and a dear old friend, Brett Tucker aka Dave Brewer of McLeod’s Daughters fame. The cast is great in this show, the storylines are somewhat predictable but still entertaining. To be honest for me it is really the cast and characters that make the show not so much the storylines. Other than that I started Suits last night and it may grow on me.+
Music-wise I am really in love with my black album by Metallica. The older I get the more I fall for Metallica, especially the old stuff is great.

Anything else? I think that was it.

I hope your week was not as stressful as mine and let’s hope I can finally manage to get a new rhythm to my days and get stuff figured out. Everything is moving at the moment and I have a little trouble to get a routine down, and we all know, not having routines makes me antsy. On thursday I have another appointment with my professor about the thesis and they are usually really inspiring and motivating.
Let’s all go into this new week with a positive attitude, don’t let anything strike you down, we got this!

Read you soon!

(Oh, I will add a pic later so that it’s not such a dry read.)

Sunday Round Up #28

Time for another short and sweet Sunday Round Up, you know the drill by now :D Let’s jump right in:

 

1. Reverse washing
I just bleached my hair about a week ago (I’m still a little undecided on it but generally I think I like it) and the result is that my hair is dry (d’uh bleach). I’ve been piling on hair masks and oils and this has been helping a lot but a general problem is that working out gives me the urge to wash my hair a lot more often. Having sweat literally dripping sweat from your face and having no dry fiber on your body by the end of the work out will do that to you. Dry hair  and washing often don’t mix all that well. I remembered a tip that Glamlife Guru Tati had on her channel a while back and she said that she read somewhere to reverse wash her hair and that it has worked well for her. What is reverse washing then? Reverse washing is when you put in your conditioner first, let it sink in really well for several minutes, massage it in (even into your scalp), then rinse and THEN you shampoo your hair. This technique has worked really well for me. The shampooing takes the access oil and moisture from the conditioner out of my hair without stripping it from the stuff that has already sunk in, genius! My hair feels really soft and healthy after the shower. Oh another thing: The Balea’s purple shampoo takes out the brassiness and is extremely smoothing and moisturizing for a shampoo plus it smells amazing. I love that stuff!

 

2. Everything is Germany and nothing hurts
The world cup is on and I am loving it. I’ve been a football fan from a very early age on and having games on every single day is heavenly. Now, being a German fan has proven to be a rollercoaster. The first game was brilliant the second was heart wrenching. And now we have to win against the US or we are in trouble, ugh!
Anyways, being the beauty girl I am I had to play with the German colors a little bit. If you want to now what I did on my nails you can see that on the Sisterhood blog here on my eyes I tried a Germany liner:

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I used a white eyeliner and a lipliner as the base for gold and red respectively and then set them with yellow (gold) and red powder shadows, the black is my new Manhattan gel liner, which printed a little bit on the upper lid but I usually don’t wear my black liner that high, so it’s okay, next time I’m just gonna set it with black shadow as well. I whacked on black mascara and blended a sheer black through the crease and here we are. I was pretty wonky, but for the first time I guess it was okay. I’ll try again should we reach the best of 16 round (for thursday’s game I am extremely anxious that I won’t be home on time to watch because of work -.-)

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3. Everything is Pitch Perfect and nothing hurts
When I watched our opener at my friend’s house on monday we watched Pitch Perfect afterwards and I fell for it. It is not the best movie ever made, in fact it has plot holes so big you could park a 14ton truck in, but it is so damn nice. It has great voices and a whole lotta heart. Rebel Wilson is awesome in this and I always liked Anna Camp and Anna Kendrick, so wins all around.
In other media news I am still reading and enjoying City of Lost Souls, I am devouring Mistresses at the moment AND I started season 5 of Sons of Anarchy. You see there is a lot of TV watching going on to help me come down after the stressful days. I’m just glad that I am making progress.

 

How was your week? I hope it was all you wanted it to be and now let’s all happily and faithfully move on the next, keep fighting all!
Read you later!

Mini Rossmann Haul

It was time for me to pick up some necessities from Rossmann so I thought I would post you a quick haul.

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The first product I picked up is the Manhattan gel eyeliner in black. My Maybelline black gel liner died and apperantly Manhattan is the only drugstore brand that still does a gel liner that doesn’t cost almost 10€ -.- Either way I heard good things about this one, I am currentlyout of black liquid or gel liners that I like, so I went for this one. We’ll see how it works. (I may use it tomorrow because I want to do a black red and gold liner for tomorrow’s Germany game).

Next I bought the Rival de Loop Clean and Care Make Up Remover Balm. I am almost out of my Bebe young care Cleansing Lotion and wanted to try something else. This balm was a really hyped up product a couple of years ago here in Germany, and at 1.19€ it really doesn’t break the bank. It is clean of silicones, color, perfume and parabens and is supposed to be suitable for sensitive skin. The second ingredient on the list is glycerin so it should be really moisturizing as well. I can’t wait to try this.

And last but not least (MINI haul. Told ya.) I repurchased a face cream. Hell must be freezing over somewhere. But yeah, it happened. I repurchased my Diadermine Lift +SPF. This stuff has done wonders for my skin. It is so much cleaner and healthier ever since I started using this about 6 months ago. I don’t know about the anti ageing and lifting effects as I mainly buy it for the SPF of 30 that it has. It claimes to protect from UVA, UVB and infrared rays. The box says it is meant for oily, dry and normal skin for people of 25+ years. I have combination oily skin that falls into the extremes (dry cheeks, super oily nose) and it works for me. It has a buttery slightly thick consistency but it melts into the skin and sinks in quickly and hydrates deeply without overloading the skin with oils etc. Also worth a note is that I don’t sweat under this moisturizer. The cream has an ECARF seal (European Center for Allergy Research Foundation) and therefore is supposed to be usable for people with highly allergic skin or generally sensitive skin, too. I had to learn the hard way that my skin is sensitive (again and again and again. [cystic acne on my forhead after using that Nivea Protect and Bronze face spf -.-]) but this one here doesn’t irritate or aggravate my skin at all. It helps it to be the best it has ever been. Obviously, I can’t speak for highly allergic skin and I think generally we should be careful with what we are putting on our skin, no skin reacts the same.
Another big plus: At about 5€ it is a little gem in a pauper’s costume. I will never understand why people waste hundreds of Euros on high end skin care when there perfectly good stuff to be found on the high street.

Like I said, mini haul, but I am genuinely excited for all the products I bought. Did you buy anything fun and/or exciting recently? Any skincare tips for combination oily skin? Just pop them in the comments below!

Read y’all sunday!

Sunday Round Up #27

Evening, all! Let’s keep this short and sweet, shall we?

 

1.Being under the weather
I’m sick. For the past couple of days I hadn’t been feeling so great and now it has struck me down. At first I thought I had overdone it with the work out on thursday but my sore throat and my hurting joints say something else. You don’t get those symptoms from working out too much. Ever since friday I feel completely deflated, I don’t even have energy to work out which I find the most disturbing. I feel slightly better today but still not really great. I will try to do the beginner’s total body work out though just to get back into the swing of things.

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2.Addition to the Max Factor range
My local drugstore got the snazzy new Max Factor counter and lookie here they added a very light shade to their Facefinity 3 in 1 All day flawless foundation which supposedly combines primer, foundation and concealer in one. I wore it once already and this stuff means business: It is high coverage, sets semi-matte and lasts forever. I accidentally slept in it (told you I wasn’t feeling great) and in the morning my face looked exactly the way it looked when I first put the foundation on 9 or 10 hours ago.
The color matches me perfectly aka it perfectly matches my neck since my face is slightly tan from being burned last week. Even though I think it would probably last extremely well in the hot weather we are having right now, I prefer my MAC F&B for these conditions as it is so much lighter and I prefer my face to look like it has nothing on at the moment. Oh by the way, I set it with my transparent powder and it still looked matte in the morning. If you are oily this foundation may be a godsent for you.

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3. Random
– I paid 60€ to take a test that will prove to my new uni that I speak some English. I studied English lit for Christ’s sake, find the mistake -.-
– I finally put my outline together and pulled a ton of books from the library so I can get fully started into my thesis, yay!
-The cup is on!!! And I am going to watch the first Germany game tomorrow baking pizza with a friend.whoop whoop!
-Mountain Dew? Mountain Dew! My supermarket is currently having a bit of an American invasion. I tried Mountain Dew, I liked Mountain Dew but I feel it is probably really bad for you. I am going to fill the neon green bottles with moist sand to turn them into weights for working out.

Anything else?
– I made my peace with City of Lost Souls. The book is a bit slow but I am really enjoying reading it.
– This is war. No really! In times like these where stuff is piling up and I feel majorly stressed and it is starting to affect my body I turn to music that relaxes me and I remember that a few summers ago 30 Seconds to Mars’ album This is War used to do that to me and it still does. Great album.

That was that. Now let’s all kick some ass next week and get shit done. And get healthy (in my case).

Sunday Round Up #26: Summer Edition

It is hot in GER at the moment, not warm but HOT (everything over 30°C is hot in my book).  So this week was mainly spent adjusting to the weather conditions.

Sunscreen
Something I learned the hard way this week was that it is that time of the year again where I can’t go out without sunscreen on: I forgot my daily moisturizer (which has SPF30 ), sat out in the sun for about 90 minutes and went home with a slightly burned face and chest. -.-

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My favorite brand of sunscreen is Nivea’s protect and bronze. I use SPF 30 on my body and SPF 50 on my face (after reading on A Model Recommends though that SPF 50 only neutralizes about 1% more of harmful rays than SPF30, I will happily go back to my SPF 30 all over). I love the protect and bronze, because for one it really moisturizes my skin and it does help me bronze, if ever so slightly. I don’t know exactly how that works because it says it has no self-tanner in but I visibly get some color when I wear it.

Summer read

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Probably due to my reading a lot of theoretical stuff for school, I needed a lighter read for my down time and as you saw last week I picked up Cassandra Clare’s City of Lost Souls and City of Heavenly Fire and started reading CoLS this week. I know I was a bit underwhelmed with City of Fallen Angels but I thoroughly enjoy City of Lost Souls so far. I haven’t read anything from Cassandra Clare  in over a year and picking up CoLS felt a bit like snuggling up with something very cozy and familiar. I really like meeting all of these characters again even though the story itself is pretty farfetched but not too tired and overdone, at least in my eyes but I generally don’t read those kinds of YA books anymore so I probably have nothing to compare it to.

Favorite Summer Look

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I think I found my summer make up for 2014. Man, that Catrice It’s A Mat World lipstick was a great investment! This nice slightly orange red is definitely the center piece here. The look itself is inspired by a Lisa Eldridge/Charlotte Tilbury video that I watched a while ago, Charlotte did it on Kate Moss for a cover shoot.
For my variation I wore MAC Face&Body in C1 (I will not harp on about this anymore, you know this is my favorite foundation for summer and in general at the moment. I primed my eyes with essence I <3 stage eye shadow base, filled in my brows with the Catrice Brow Set and lined my upper lashline with the Max Factor Masterpiece liquid liner in brown (there is a reason to them discontinuing it, it is actually not a great product at all: super streaky and wears off quickly, must go back to my brown gel liner). Then I powdered and put on my trusted L’Oréal Miss Manga mascara (gah, I love this stuff. I smell holy grail). After that I contoured and bronzed with the Catrice Hip Trip Hydrating Bronzer and blended the contour with MAC Aphrodite’s Shell which I also used  as a blush, I just loved the bronzey glowy result. To add some color other than bronze to my face I put on Catrice It’s a Mat World, blotted and reapplied. The lipstick lasted almost 9 hours this way without touching up through eating and drinking, it is non-drying but matte (as the name indicates). Best 1.75€ ever spend.  It is not available anymore though, sorry about that.

Other Media Shizz

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I arrived at my favorite Sons of Anarchy season which is number three. The Sons go to Ireland. All hell breaks loose. Nuff said. I don’t know if production was really moved to Ireland, if not they did one hell of a job faking Ireland, it looks very authentic.The theme song got a celtic make over and all of the episode titles of the eps that take place in Ireland are in Gaelic.
Music-wise I’ve been loving the EP that was released accompanying season 3 called The King is Gone. It has a song performed by Katey Sagal, who plays Gemma on the show and has an incredibly beautiful voice, the Celtic version of the theme song and other tracks from the show which trigger a lot of memories for me. I just love this show and everything about it.

Anything else?
I’m about to finish my first week of the regular work out calandar and I am way more sore than with the beginner one, but it feels good! When you start seeing results it becomes an addiction. I read that on Instagram and it is true.

I finally made some progress with the thesis and I am about to hand in my abstract. Yay.

 

That was about it I think. Now, let’s make a big tick under this week and focus on the new one. Let it be productive and focused or whatever else it is that you want from the new week.

Read you all soon!