[Project Clean Up] My Catrice Lipstick Collection (+ Swatches)

Remember way back when I started to declutter my make up? Yeah, I made some progress. I still have too much stuff but for now I have a big ass plastic bag filled with all kinds of make up and skin care that will make it to the wheelie bin soon. Either way I decided to leave my Catrice lipstick collection untouched for now, even though there are a couple of colors that I think will be cut sooner or later. In total I own a whopping 15 Catrice lipsticks and most of them have been discontinued, 5 of them are actually from before the relaunch. If you’d still like to see what I’ve got, right this way please!

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Let’s begin with some basic information. The lipsticks come in metal tubes. The Ultimate Shines in the silver tube are sheerer and glossier than the more creamy and opaque Ultimate Colors in the black bullet. The Ultimate Shines contain 3.5g /.12oz whereas the Ultimate Colors hold 3.8g/.13oz, they look as if they were the exact same size though. It may just be that the Ultimate Color formula is slightly heavier than the Ultimate Shine formula. Both formulas retail for 3.95€


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l.t.r.: Hollywood’s Fabulous 40′s C04 The Nude Scene, Out of Space C02 Discover Purple Pluto, Revoltaire C01 Colour Bomb, Urban Baroque C01 Marie Antoinette

The first swatches are those of limited edition colors. The Nude Scene and Colour Bomb are mattes, Discover Purple Pluto is multicolored glitter in a sheer purple base and Marie Antoinette is a creamy peachy nude. The formula on all of these is fine. The mattes are not as moisturizing as the other two, which was to be expected. The lasting power is good, better on the mattes than on the other two in this case. Colour Bomb is easily my fave out of those above, it is such a nice almost neon coral, can’t wait to wear this more again as the weather gets nicer.

l.t.r.: It's A Matt World, Hey Nude!, Frozen Rose

l.t.r.: It’s A Matt World, Hey Nude!, Frozen Rose

Above you can see the three regular lipsticks I own of my favorite formula Ultimate Color. It’s A Matt World is a matte orangey- red, think Lady Danger only a little redder. I LOVE this color because on top of being simply gorgeous it is also really creamy and comfortable to wear, you can barely tell it’s a matte lipstick unless you look into the mirror. Hey Nude! is a pinky nude and it is still available. Frozen Rose is a cool pink that I used to wear a lot. Generally the Ultimate Color formula is really creamy and moisturizing, deep colors and mattes naturally last longer than the nudes  and lighter shades, but generally I would say they come in around 4-6 hrs of wear.

l.t.r.: And The Oscar Goes To, Pink Panther, Simply Rosewood.

l.t.r.: And The Oscar Goes To, Pink Panther, Simply Rosewood.

The next batch are all from the Ultimate Shine line. Simply Rosewood is a rosewood color with some gloss and slip to it. This is more of a fall color for me. Pink Panther is a bright Barbie-pink with glitter. Don’t ask me why I bought it, this color is a lot of things but not me. For some reason I can’t part with it though. I’ll try to make it work over the summer. And The Oscar Goes To is the newest of my Catrice lipsticks. It is a purpley berry pink with a borderline metallic sheen to it. I love how this shade works with my skin. The Ultimate Shine lipsticks are glossier and slippier than the Ultimate Colors which means that the wear time is not as long, they just come off easier but again they are really comfortable to wear and not drying at all and despite having glitter in the formula Pink Panther doesn’t feel gritty on the lips.

l.t.r.: Rouge Satin Midnight Red and Spanish Red; Absolute Moisture Soft Coral, Gentle Beige and Gentle Nude

l.t.r.: Rouge Satin Midnight Red and Spanish Red; Absolute Moisture Soft Coral, Gentle Beige and Gentle Nude

These five above are all from before the relaunch. The Rouge Satins are a classic and wine red cream finish and formula. The Absolute Moisture lipsticks are just that really moisturizing with a little more shine and a little sheerer maybe. Soft Coral is a metallic orange coral, Gentle Beige is just that -a beige- but weirdly enough it is my favorite from the Absolute Moistures. It blends really nicely with my natural lip color and gives a very nice creamy nude. Gentle Nude is a rosy pink, a little muted maybe, a very nice your-lips-but-better color. It’s one of those that I definitely need to wear more, especially now where I am a little over the extremely nude lips.


If you were looking for good drugstore lipsticks I can recommen those two lines. The Ultimate Shines come in 8, the Ultimate Color come in 16 shades and they range from nudes to brights to darks.


Sunday Round Up #19: Mini ‘Up Close and Personal’

Hey guys,

unfortunatly I will have to integrate some Up Close and Personal in this Sunday Round Up because the realization that I am going through stuff (again -.- ) is overshadowing everything right now. I tried to ignore it for weeks, I just pushed on, thinking that if I pretend it’s not there it will just go away. Today or actually last night, I reached the point where I just couldn’t overlook it anymore. I think it’s some sort of depression/anxiety combination, because actually I don’t feel completely numb and broken like I normally do when I’m under, this time it’s more as if someone has been sucking all the energy out of me. I am constantly stressed, I sleep in weird patterns, I am heartily exhausted, especially of myself. I overthink everything, I keep on falling short of the expectations that I have of myself as a human being. You know I am not fishing for sympathy or compliments here, that is not how UpCloseAndPersonal works. I am merely showing you where I’m at at the moment and where I want to go.

So, at the moment I feel like I am not a good friend at all. I am self-involved, easily distracted and unable to show feelings properly. Like how grateful I am for the friends that I have, and how wonderful people they are.
I know that this will blow over, that I will get a grip on myself and be a better person again, but right now 9:05pm in Germany I am down, I am exhausted and I don’t like myself.

I built myself a cocoon today, cranked up the heating, hid in bed (2 duvets, 2 sheepskins, roughly 10 pillows) and watched silly rom-coms ( I Give It a Year: pretty decent; The Sweetest Thing: complete shit, no nicer way to put it). I haven’t done this out of sheer need for a while. Actually I haven’t done that ever since I returned from Bayreuth. Not like that. I am not desperate or hurting, like I said, I am just exhausted and I feel like my caffeine overdose earlier this week ties in with that. Apparently I operated under the assumption that when I just cram enough caffeine into my body I will feel better. Nope. Just gives me headache, nausea and severe dehydration.

Where to go from here? Accepting that something is wrong is the first step, I think. This coming week is going to be stressful. I am catholic and this is the week leading up to Easter. As stressful as this week is I normally love it. I love Palm Sunday with its celebration but also the first shadows of what is to come on Good Friday, I love Maundy Thursday, where my whole parish gets together after mass to have a meal and then Good Friday. There is something so bleak and miserable about this day, no organ, no flowers and the crosses are covered up and for a little over 24 hrs the world seems to come to a standstill. My family fasts this day, so no meat, no jam, no candy basically just butter and bread and some fish for lunch, and one heck of a lot of easter preparations. On saturday then the Easter Night celebrations, my favorite part: Arriving at a completely dark church, then bringing in the Easter fire from the yard in a procession and then the church is slowly lit by candles, no artificial light until the big Gloria where all the bells are rung. And after mass more eating and drinking with the whole parish. Man, I love this week :)

Either way I’ll try to cut myself some slack, I won’t put too much pressure on myself, one step at a time and be them baby steps. And I will try to do things that are good for me. Catch some sun, rest, eat right, drink enough and re-focus. I guess I’ll try to just survive. I have the week after Easter off, that should help me to get better.

If you got this far and you are interested to get into the normal Sunday Round Up stuff let’s do that.

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1. Make Up Shizz
I don’t like my make up at the moment. It is never quite like I want it to be and even though my skin is as clear and as healthy as it will probably ever be, I feel like no matter what foundation I wear, it is blotchy and weird and don’t get me started on my eye make up. I’m still trying to find a way to make it all work. I am currently wearing my Catrice All Matt Plus again. It is slightly too dark at the moment but it’s not too bad. I actually started to apply this with my fingers (yep, weirded me out, too). I’m still no fan of getting make up all over my fingers but, the outcome is actually nicer and the coverage is better than with a brush (whysoever).
On my desperate search for a blush that was not too in your face, didn’t piss me off and was no bronzer I dug out my MAC The Perfect Cheek. It is probably the nudest most natural blush color there is. It saves me from looking like a ghost without making me look like a clown.

2.Media Shizz
Music-wise I am still listening to the new Delain and Subway to Sally albums and Epica has actually released a new song from their upcoming album which is called Unchain Utopia and it is just about as awesome as Essence of Silence. If all the songs on The Quantum Enigma are like this we have found ourselves a new all-time favorite album. And as per usual the lyrics are brilliant!
I have been catching up on Hart of Dixie, which is a testament to the state I am in at the moment and I am about to start season 4 of Friday Night Lights. Both are total pick-me-up shows for me (borrowed that expression from Snowhoney and find that it is perfect).
Book-wise I am about to finish Dark Secrets by Hjorth&Rosenfeldt and I have the second one in the Sebastian Bergman- series sitting here. So far it is a good solid murder mystery but not spectecularly awesome (Man, A Song of Ice and Fire has ruined me -.- or at least set the bar ridiculously high for what a good book is).

Other than that there was not much going on this week other than that I have worked five days (which also didn’t help much with my exhaustion)

Sunday Round Up #18

Good day, guys! How was your week? Mine was stressful, with a lot of work strewn in but towards the end it got much better. Once again hard work paid off, I am always glad when that happens. Also, my contract at work turned into an unlimited one, not that I would want to work there for the rest of my days but it is nice to know, that my job is not going anywhere. Anyways, here is what I’ve been playing with over the week:

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1. Make Up Stuff

I did some shopping this week and I picked up two basics that I will get a lot of wear out of. I chose essence Cookies&Cream eyeshadow in 02 Macaron, c’est bon a light peachy-pink shadow with a silver-white sheen. It is a baked shadow, which I am normally not a big fan of, but all of the baked powders from the Cookies&Cream collection be they shadows or the blush are incredibly soft and smooth. I believe I have never touched any powders that were so soft. And I was a good girl, too! I only picked up the shade that I didn’t have in my collection yet and left the other shadows and the blush which were dupes to colors I already own at the store. Yay me!

The other shadow I picked up was Babushka me from the Kalinka Beauty collection which was on clearance. It is a medium neutral golden brown with a satin-y sheen. I didn’t have such a brown in my collection and it is a great crease color, very subtle but gives a nice sculpting effect. I am wearing a look with these two shadows today  and I am really pleased. The shadows hold up great and are very nice and subtle.

I found a new lip combo while going over my stash  and it contains – lo and behold – a lipgloss. Over the last couple of weeks I had a big issue with dry flakey lips and nothing could heal them. The only thing I could do was keep them as moisturized as possible. Recently I have been wearing Rimmel Lasting Finish lipstick in 070 Airy Fairy a lot. I still like my nude lips but when I don’t have time for a strong eye I need a little more color on the lips I find, so I don’t look completely dead. Airy Fairy does that. It is a light mauvy pink with a creamy finish, it is not drying but it is also not the most moisturizing lipstick on the block (blog?). To add a specialy moisture boost I added the No 7 High Shine lipgloss in Smile. The color is similar if a little lighter than Airy Fairy. The gloss goes on very balmy with a creamy sheen and it is indeed very moisturizing as promised on the tube. In combination with Airy Fairy it becomes an opaque moisturizing cream with a beautiful buttery shine on the lips, very cushiony and soft. It really covers imperfections and smoothes over the lips, I am in love with it!


2. (Cold) Tea

‘This is a bit of a sensitive topic. I feel like I fell for a scam. Let’s face it I DID fall for a scam. And hundreds of people with me. Turns out every tea is a cold tea. So there.
Well, the weather has become really nice and warm here, finally and I had to break out my favorite tumbler again and dig out my cold teas. Only problem: I have a green tea, a black tea and only one caffeine- free peppermint tea (what else). Now, after my mum said that those cold teas must have been processed in some way to yield flavor in cold water I kinda had to prove her wrong and went ahead and dipped any tea bag in my collection in cold water and lo and behold (I have to stop using that expression!) it worked. Cold water may not be able to pull as much color out of the bags but it definitely flavors the water enough for me. What I like about my cold teas is that the flavoring is light and therefore really refreshing and at the moment I have at least two usually three or more cups a day. Needless to say that I have been really good about meeting my hydration goal lately.


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3. Broken Book Ban and new Music

Well, well, well. I did it. I broke the book ban. I bought a new Susan Elizabeth Phillips book, devoured it and it was okay. Next I received the new Veronica Mars novel. I devoured that and it was REALLY good. I am so sad it is over and we don’t know yet when the next one will be out, only that there is going to be another one. If you loved the series and the film you will love the book. Oh, by the way, I’m still not able to download the film from iTunes. I should just give up and wait for the dvd (which will be out in July).
Aaaand I went to the library today. I wanted another Fitzek but I ended up with two Hjorth & Rosenfeldts’, books 1 and 2 in the Sebastian Bergman series. I’m about 15 pages into the first and I like it a lot so far. But really, if you got something from the library you are not really breaking the book ban, right? Right!

The new Delain album The Human Contradiction (can we please stop for a second and appreciate that name?) launched on friday. Because I ordered directly from their record company my copy arrived on wednesday, woohoo. And woohoo indeed, it is really really good! The lyrics are probably a little darker and the sound is heavier but I love that. All of my favorite bands seem to go heavier at the moment and I am so ridiculously pleased about that! I still need a little more time with this album but, yeah, so far I really REALLY like it.


4. Empties

Quick round of empties before I let you go: I finished a pack of my peppermint green tea. It happens to be a cold tea but I love this flavor so much I would have bought it anyway and it so happens I already have a back up, it is just so good. Next up is my Naomi Campbell Cat Deluxe At Night shower gel, love the scent, I’m on the second bottle of the perfume and really liked the shower gel. This came with one of the perfumes, I won’t buy the full size though, I still have enough shower gel to finish up before I can even think of buying a new one.
I finished a bottle of my Elnett  Ultra Sleek hair spray. Smells nice (roses!), does the job and doesn’t make my hair crisp or oily, already have a back up of this in use.
Last but not least I finished my trusted Balea Wellness Foot Lotion Grapefruit Mint. Liked this stuff a lot and will have to get a comparable product soon. Unfortunately they don’t do this particular scent anymore, will see what they came up with for the new version. Actually I might even take a look at their more moisturizing offerings, whatever tickles my fancy.


That’s it, a big tick under this week and now on to a happy successful new one!

Confessions of a Mascara Addict #2: L’Oréal, Manhattan, Catrice and Max Factor

Finally I got around to photograph the second installment of Confessions of a Mascara Addict. I put 6 new mascaras to the test and here are the results:



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Naked Eyes

My lashes are naturally rather straight and stubborn and a little sparse towards the corners. I am looking for a mascara that really holds a curl and emphasizes my corner lashes, makes my lashes in general really black, long and thick.


1. L’Oréal Volume Million Lashes

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Black, rubber brush, gold packaging;  this is almost a classic. I like it a lot. It holds a curl, volumizes and seperate the lashes. You can see one coat, in fact all of the pictures show one coat on my lashes. The wand is a really hard rubber brush that kind of stings when it touches the sensitive upper waterline  and the formula is perceptibly scented. The wand is a weird stumpy shape and really thick, all of those things aside though, it gives a nice result.


2. L’Oréal Miss Manga Mega Volume

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This one I am really impressed with. Super black, holds a curl and gives length and volume. It builds up really nicely. A couple of days ago I just wore two coats of this, some blush and natural lipstick and my lashes were really prominent on my face. Really thick and long and black without being clumpy. This mascara seems to have been received really controversely, some people love it, some people hate it, I count myself safely in the group of people who loves this mascara. The wand has normal bristles, is really big and flexible, it is cut in a conical shape with a sort of wave-profile along the outline. The thicker end really helps to catch the outer lashes.

3.Manhattan Ultimate Long & Curl

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I used to wear a previous version of this when I was maybe 14 or 15 and fell back in love when I picked this up when it was in offer. The formula seems to have fibres in it, which I quite like but  I know some people don’t. It makes my lashes really thick and long, doesn’t hold the curl that well but it is still pretty great. With this you have to be a bit careful that it doesn’t clump up, but I think as love as you don’t layer coat over coat on, you should be fine. This has a garden-variety mascara wand with normal bristles, if anything it is a little shorter than other brushes.

4. Manhattan X-treme Last WP

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This gives a very natural result and if you like that, this mascara is your thing. I prefer a little more oomph to my lashes so this is not really my thing. Aside from that it is not a bad product at all. The brush is long, slim and has normal bristles. It tints the lashes nice and black, holds a curl but doesn’t really volumize or lengthen.


5. Max Factor Clump Defy WP/ Covergirl Clump Crusher WP

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This is another one with a very natural result. Thankfully I got that 30% off or I would be really upset  about spending a lot of money on a mascara that I won’t wear or at least won’t wear much. This one really separates the lashes it holds the curl but the lengthening powers are not that great and it is not really volumizing. It has a slightly curved rubber brush, which generally I like but the formula just doesn’t do for me.  I am a little disappointed with this. Again, not a bad product, just not enough oomph for me.


6. Catrice Glamour Doll WP

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Out of the mascaras shown here this is by far my favorite. It lengthens, volumizes, separates and holds the curl until I take it off in the evening. I may have found a holy grail mascara here, plus at 4,45€ this is VERY affordable. I really like the slim long rubber brush, too. It allows me to apply the mascara without smudging it all over my eyelid.


Round up:

None of these mascaras irritated or stung my eyes, they are all easily removable with my bebe young care quick&clean cleansing lotion for sensitive skin. The ones that are on power rotation right now are the Glamour Doll and because I try not to use WP mascaras all the time not to dry out my lashes too much I switch it out with the Miss Manga on a regular basis.


If you still like to see some more mascara mini reviews you can read the first confessions chapter here.

Sunday Round Up #17

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Good evening, Ladies and Gentlemen!

How was your week? Mine was fine. There was more studying and working and a lot less party than last week, but not every week can be this exceptional, right? So what DID I do?

1. More cooking, baking and cleaning
I baked marble cake this week. Not exactly low carb but soo good. Also I made my first ‘Grüne Soße’. I felt like a proper Hessian woman when I succeeded. ‘Grüne Soße’ (direct translation green sauce) is a southern hessian specialty. It’s basically 7 specific herbs mashed up with some quark, mayonnaise, salt and pepper. Much like potato salad every family has their specific recipe here. We usually eat this with potatoes and it is traditionally a dish for the thursday before easter. I know easter is still a couple of weeks away but I wanted to see if I can get the sauce done, should my mom not be able to make it herself. We took some to the hospital and my mom said it was fine, so I guess I am good to go.
I also gave the kitchen fridge a good deep clean, the basement fridge is next.

2. Pamper saturday
I think I am dealing with a bit of a cold (or a severe allergic reaction, not sure). And after cooking, cleaning and baking on saturday as well as visiting my mom, I decided to run a bath (bright red and poppy scented), listen to some Dance with Dragons audio book and do a de-stress face mask. Man, that was nice. Now the last week of writing my linguistics paper can come.

3. Weirdo make up
Do you ever go through phases where none of your foundations look good on your skin? Seriously, either they are too dark, too glowy, too matte, too heavy, too light. Major nuisance. And the weirdest thing is my skin itself is pretty healthy and clear at the moment. And what is weirder: I don’t like my eye make ups either. God alone knows what’s wrong with me. What I do love though is my L’Oréal Miss Manga Mega Volume mascara. Makes my lashes super long, thick AND holds a curl. Amazing.

4. Pig skin withdrawels
I miss football. There I said it. I miss watching it, I miss staring at my play-by-stream, praying it won’t give out, because it is my only way to keep track of what my Pats are doing, checking back on the live blog, because I need Fred Kirsch to keep me sane, especially when my boys are pulling a massive comeback win, like they liked to do last season. And now that ‘my’ Julian Edelman has re-signed I am so ready for the new season!
Now, the only thing that sort-of helps is Friday Night Lights, a well-loved, critically well-received, dead too soon tv show, set in smalltown- Texas, centering around high school football. It is kind of a quiet tv show focussing both on personal matters, the smaller and bigger tragedies and joys in life and, well, football. It is quiet, yes, but never slow or boring. And Taylor Kitsch et al. are very easy on the eyes. Footballers, eh?!

5. I can’t read.
No, seriously, I can’t. I have started about 6 books, made it 3 pages in put it down to never touch it again. I hate those phases.

6. What else?
Subway to Sally MitGift ad nauseum. SO. GOOD.
AND my Delain Deluxe Edition of the new album will be shipped next friday. Yay.
The new Epica single ‘The Essence of Silence’ is LOUD. And dope.
I still can’t download the Veronica Mars movie from iTunes. I assume we are waiting for the German synchronization (which is already done, because I saw the movie in German at the theater). So eff you, iTunes. Grump.

That was that. Let’s make a tick under this week and move on into the next. May it be productive and happy!

That was about it.

Picture Post: Desk Tour

Photo 20-03-2014 14 09 03A couple of weeks ago I told you how I had moved my desk around and today I thought I’d show you the result a little better, now that I actually have worked a little here and have become comfortable with the new set up.

If you were wondering my glass desk top as well as the base are from IKEA.

I love the base to pieces, as they give me a little extra storage room.

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Photo 20-03-2014 14 09 24On the one side I keep a box with teas and other hot drinks as well as my summer drinking cup (I really need to downsize my collection here I know). On the other side I keep school materials and some candles in the pretty box. Special bonus, my purse fits really nicely in with the folders. The bin-type thing in the top picture is also by IKEA and I store my spare plastic bags in there so I can re-use them whenever I need one.

Photo 20-03-2014 14 10 25On the right side of my desk I keep my pencil roll and pad as well as my journal and the book Snowhoney made for me for Christmas. I want to eat more fruit so I keep an apple and a knife handy. In the back you can also see my nail bag, nailpolish remover, handcream and some polishes that I want to wear and review in the future. And then there is my skull on the book between the candles. I love this thing and even though I can’t see it when my laptop is open I still know it’s there. Memento mori, Ladies and Gentlemen. One of my favorite concepts at the moment.

Photo 20-03-2014 14 10 46What I love about the center part of my desk is that semi transparent mat. I tend to keep to do-lists for my every day life and the blogs under there as well as documents that I can’t lose and need to take care of in the near future. In the center I have a written version of the lyrics of Rock, Paper, Scissors by Katzenjammer. Snowhoney made this for me a while ago and it has been on my desk ever since. The lyrics mean a lot to me and are quite an inspiration for my life.

Photo 20-03-2014 14 10 33Against the wall there are more note pads, boxes with documents (being an adult is annoying at times), my lucky pigs, my Pensacola pelican and the books I am currently working with (Sociolinguistics and Varieties of English: The Pacific and Australasia, pageturners I tell ya [actually they really arent't that bad]).

When it comes to beauty I need some refreshers on my desk, especially now, that I am confined behind my laptop for an average of 8 hrs. Immediate refreshers are my handcreams. I currently have the I love… glitter&gold one sitting out which smells amazing and the Hand san 5% Urea which works amazingly well. On top of that I keep facial wipes handy to mop down my face should I feel sticky and gross. The ones I am currently using are by Lacura beauty (Aldi Süd). They have Salicylic acid which my skin loves.

Photo 20-03-2014 14 10 09And last but not least I have a bowl with my favorite powders (setting, blush, bronzer) on here. It’s another thing I really love looking at.

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I really love my bronze-y shades at the moment can you tell?

Another thing that I have always at the ready is a blanket and a fleece jacket because I always cool out like nobody’s business when I’m just sitting around typing.

What beauty stuff do you have on your desk to make work a little less tedious?








Sunday Round Up #16

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What a week this was! I don’t even know where to begin, I had so many wonderful things coming my way both material and things that really touched my soul. In a way this Sunday Round Up is a list of things I am grateful for.

My job(s):
At the beginning of the week the boy I tutor basically told me he enjoys working with me, and that makes me so happy! If his exam turns out better than the one before on top of that I will be over the moon! He is a great guy with a great mind but his orthography escapes him sometimes a little bit. It was a bit scary at first but now it seems to work out fine. I sincerely hope it stays that way.
Later this week I returned to one of the stores I helped out at over the summer. That earned me money and a big hug from the one store manager and I got told off semi-seriously for not having heard the other one saying hello to me. It was so nice to come back to people who seem to genuinely like me. I feel really blessed about that.

I’m not telling you that to show off. From all those years of being bullied I am still surprised when people actually like me and accept me the way I am. I am not used to that. And it makes me beyond happy when someone does like me. Just like that.

Veronica Mars:
The Veronica Mars movie came out this thursday in Germany in a limited number of theater across the country. One of those theaters was in my hometown and my fabulous Snowhoney came home from work early to go directly to the theater with me and watch the movie on opening night. I had so much fun. The film was a total marshmallow (Veronica Mars fan)-pleaser. If you know the show, there were so many little things that made it special, but I think it is easy to understand for people who don’t know the series as well. My theater here in Germany was far from being sold out but it was fuller than I expected it to be. In the US the movie made the Box Office Top 10 (despite being released to only a limited number of theaters there as well, way to go US marshmallows!) and was sold out in places. If you like sassy blondes, murder mysteries, high school reunion type movies, great father daughter teams, epic love stories or any combination thereof  I can only urge you from the bottom of my heart to go see the movie, I know you will enjoy it!
I have a bit of a bone to pick with iTunes Germany, though. We were promised a worldwide release for the download version for friday. It seems to have worked everywhere but in Germany. I still can’t download the movie. I met with my best friends on saturday hoping to be able to share the experience of watching the movie with them (again). Imagine how upset I was when I couldn’t. I can only hope that the movie will be released as soon as possible (as there is no indicator by iTunes when it will become available). I really want to watch the movie again and I really want to watch it with my friends. It would make my day if I could get it on monday (hint hint).

Subway to Sally- MitGift:
Another exciting release this week was Subway to Sally’s new album MitGift  (play on the German word for dowry which can also be devided to spell ‘with poison’. German is a weird language sometimes. Or strangely accurate. Who knows.)- Mördergeschichten (murderer stories). The title is rather apt since it is a concept album in which every song is inspired by famous murder cases and old legends (like the cruel sister- legend) I won’t go into detail for every song that would go beyond the scope of this post. Suffice to say that all of the songs are everything that makes Subway to Sally for me only darker and better. Music-wise every single song is headbang-ready with a hardcore baseline, heavy drums and some electronic elements here and there. But the lyrics are still as beautiful as ever and the melodic parts have stolen my heart. Some of them are so gentle and heart wrenching that they seem to be the only thing that keeps the thrumming base and drums at bay,  keep them from swallowing you whole and dragging you down into the darkness. I love this album, not with the usual bright burning excitement, this time it is a dark flame but one that will keep on burning for a very long time. This album comes even closer to my all time favorite Engelskrieger (Angel Warrior) than Schwarz in Schwarz (Black in Black) did two years ago.

Make Up:
This week wasn’t much of a make up week at all. I am still testing mascaras for the next chapter of Confessions of a Mascara Addict. Snowhoney picked up the new L’Oréal Miss Manga Mega Volume mascara for me and it is awesome for a non-waterproof mascara. I also went back to my Catrice All Matt Plus that seemed to break me out last time I wore it. We’ll see if it does it again, or if it was something else.

Books and TV Shows:
In this particular case this week was a bit of a lost week. I started watching Vikings again, but was so distraught and distracted that I couldn’t really enjoy it. I was also too jumpy to read a book. I started to read Sons and Lovers (D.H. Lawrence) again in preparation for my thesis but I gave up after taking over an hour for one page. I just couldn’t concentrate. I will try very hard to do better this week. In fact I will HAVE to do better this week as I have a deadline in about 15 days and I am not nearly as prepared as I should be.

NFL Free Agency:
Wanna know why I was so distraught? Yep, free agency started last tuesday. For non- Americans like me who have not grown up with it: Free agency means that all the football players whose contracts are up at the end of the season are now on the open market and free to negotiate with any team they like and by extension that also means they can sign with any team they like. I understand this is rather exciting for Americans who have grown up with it and are used to going through this every year. Now try to imagine you are a little German girl who goes through this for the first time, has nothing but a basic idea how this works, is really awful with new situations and change and on top of everything her favorite player is out on the open market as well. And about three times it looked like he was coming close to sign with another team than the one she kinda lost her heart to. I just came off of an anxiety episode and my body was all too ready to go back to those patterns. Since tuesday I have slept only a couple of hours at night and whenever my phone went off I jumped. Last night around 8 (German time) finally the relieve came, where tweets popped up saying that finally my team and my fave player had reached an agreement. (I hope to God it is not another one year one. If it is I will have to personally swim to California and kick his ass, I really can’t go through this mess again next year. *welp)

Post Scriptum:
In order to restore my calm I am now re-watching Friday Night Lights and re-reading The Mists of Avalon for the umpteenth time. Any of the Avalon-series books is always great to give me rest and ease my mind.

This was it from me for you about this week. I hope yours was as bright and shiny as mine (the fact that ‘my’ player re-signed really blots out the mess of the FA :D ). Now let’s all check off this week and move on in a productive, anxiety-free new one!

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